Abre los ojos

Before you use to get mad at me more ofter because it was just the two of us Before you use to wake up around 2 or 3pm Before you use to make much more racket at night Before you use to give off at me for walking up early Now you have to be willing to mop the floor at 7:30am Now you have to take your dad every Tuesday to Bardan Cottage Now you have to drink less So...maybe it's not so bad

Today was a grey and rainy. I tried to be good to myself today Washed my hair to look nice Ate some beef to keep my iron levels up Even took a mini nap to recharge I liked I didn't have to make other peoples lunches today I enjoyed my time in the outside world and for a treat a fresh mango all for me ... and now I get the chance to write in peace

Today is Sunday and my body knows it There is nothing quite like the feeling of waking up to a lovely and sunny day. I must admit, it does cheer me up. Makes me want to go out. To avoid sitting in front of the TV all day. I mustn't forget that I live so close to the seafront. I can enjoy the sea air for free. Also I still have my two feet and they happen to be in perfect condition for a nice walk. Must remember to take pleasure in the simple things. Because life is too short. Even if it sound cheesy, I don'y care. I know it's true. I mustn't forget to work on my breathing exercises. They do me a world of good. All in all, thing could be worse.  So I better enjoy the day. Make it count.

Today I'm just not in the mood Not in the mood to be called "tea lady" Not in the mood to be accommodating I just want a day to myself  A day where I don't need to be worried about everybody else's needs and requests A day where I don't need to answer as to my whereabouts A day where I don't need to take care of breakfasts, lunches and dinners A day where I don't have to dwell about hardly having any money in the bank Is it too much to ask for a day where I can simply switch off and relax? God, could you please get me out of here? Thanks in advance P.S. By the way, tomorrow is International Women's Day...just saying...

  Sometimes I find myself in situations beyond my control. Where I have to quickly step up. Where things get out of hand and looking the other way is not an option. It's like everything comes to you at once. From all angles. Demanding you attention and action. You feel deeply responsible And, of course, you end up getting little sleep. Sometimes even the message gets lost in communication and it's easy to get the wrong end of the stick. Feelings get hurt. It's only natural. I understand sometimes it can seem like we are under attack and can't help but ask: Why did this happen to me? How did things get bad so quickly? So how do we come back from this? How do we go back to normal? When other people's health are at stake or friendships go through struggles? At this moment in time is hard to see a clear picture. Maybe hope is the best answer for now What do you think? Breathe in, breath out.

Three years living in the Midwest, around the time of 9-11. I remember that time with fondness. I was just practically out of highschool, getting to experience another English speaking country. Very different to the UK, I might add. And I was not alone. My family was with me every step of the way. For example, my sister and I, went to really cool concerts. She use to drive a nice Toyota Corolla. We even went to the mall on a Saturday just to watch people's fashion. I think the emo culture was big back then and there was actually a shop called Hot Topic. It sold goth type apparel. I had my first American musician boyfriend. He was half mexican and half german. It did not last long. I personally think it was on account of the fact it was mostly long distance. Did I mention he loves to write? I think he even published some short stories with Edgar Allan Poe vibes. I was so close to visiting him one Christmas in Hawaii (from all placed). But, as I said, we broke it off my Thanksgiving ...