Abre los ojos

  Sometimes I find myself in situations beyond my control. Where I have to quickly step up. Where things get out of hand and looking the other way is not an option. It's like everything comes to you at once. From all angles. Demanding you attention and action. You feel deeply responsible And, of course, you end up getting little sleep. Sometimes even the message gets lost in communication and it's easy to get the wrong end of the stick. Feelings get hurt. It's only natural. I understand sometimes it can seem like we are under attack and can't help but ask: Why did this happen to me? How did things get bad so quickly? So how do we come back from this? How do we go back to normal? When other people's health are at stake or friendships go through struggles? At this moment in time is hard to see a clear picture. Maybe hope is the best answer for now What do you think? Breathe in, breath out.

Three years living in the Midwest, around the time of 9-11. I remember that time with fondness. I was just practically out of highschool, getting to experience another English speaking country. Very different to the UK, I might add. And I was not alone. My family was with me every step of the way. For example, my sister and I, went to really cool concerts. She use to drive a nice Toyota Corolla. We even went to the mall on a Saturday just to watch people's fashion. I think the emo culture was big back then and there was actually a shop called Hot Topic. It sold goth type apparel. I had my first American musician boyfriend. He was half mexican and half german. It did not last long. I personally think it was on account of the fact it was mostly long distance. Did I mention he loves to write? I think he even published some short stories with Edgar Allan Poe vibes. I was so close to visiting him one Christmas in Hawaii (from all placed). But, as I said, we broke it off my Thanksgiving ...

So every once in a while I decide to change the wallpaper on my phone. This might be quite a common practice. What I want to emphazice on is that this time around I decided to put a Bjork picture as my background. The cover of her album Post to be more precise.  So far I can say it has done wonders And I believe it was not a random decision, but a declaration of principal. She is my spirit animal. I am determined to channel her creative energy this 2026. I look at her face on my phone telling me to get going, to make it happen.

So I dared to do something different this year. I mean why not. What is the worst thing that could happen? I took courage, went ahead and started making YouTube shorts. It was a good idea to make it on a particular subject. I decided to create mini book reviews. But not just on any books. I have been picking book that are rare, book I enjoy, book I would love for other people to read. I don't think it could do any harm. I mean if I am constantly taking books out of the library and being fascinated by them, why not share it with strangers? Well so far so good. I have the advantage I can do these videos at my own pace. it is encouraging there is always plenty of material to take from. I personally think I will continue to enjoy this. All I need is a bit of creativity around my outfit. Because I want to show my face and also use my voice. A real person talking about a book they have ACTUALLY read. Long story short this little exercise will stimulate my creativity, therefore it will co...